(FEB 20, 2020)
Just here to offer some updates on my progress so far! Since my last update I have reached out to various poetry organizations to acquire a mentorship! I have yet to receive any response that provides a potential mentor from an organization, but I will continue to persevere and contact more organizations. Additionally, I have begun designing a prototype of my publication, attempting to practice formatting the publication. I have decided to produce a digital version of the zine as well as a physical zine. Zines are alike to magazines in that they are publications that share work. Where they defer is that zines were originally designed as a part of science fiction fandoms to create “fan magazines” or “fanzines,” in the 1930s in order for fans to connect and bond over science fiction.
In the spirit of the original zine, and the current zines in existence, these zines are being made by a fan of poetry to connect with others. Plus, the personalized aspect of the manufacturing represents the whole problem I am tackling with this project: something lovable feels intangible, so we make our own versions and share with each other and connect with our peers and our work and become comfortable with what we create and share.
Finally, I have begun developing and editing my website design, via Wix. While technological and STEM developments are not my strong suits, I am really excited to become better at managing media on my own, learning from my mistakes, and improving on my current skills (or at the very least, developing some skills).
This project is a challenge for me in a lot of ways because it requires me to face an underlying and persistent feeling of imposter syndrome. I have a habit of trying to do everything worldly possible because there is always so much that I want to do at once. Realistically, I cannot do everything. My self-confidence, as Sarah Kay says, can be measured in teaspoons, even when I am doing everything that I love and giving my all. I want to measure up to everyone else but in reality I cannot -- because I am not them and I do not have the same project, same circumstances, nor the same background knowledge to tackle a project like this one. While I have not been in the Academy, I have taken some of the classes in the program. While I came into the project late, at least I stepped up to the plate and I am giving it everything I can possibly offer. I have created a project that calls for an interest that is entirely my own and thus a perseverance that is also entirely my own.
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